A warm cup of Constant Comment in a thick mug is the best kind of comfort to me. It's gotten very cold here. It seems surreal that Christmas is 19 days away. I'm more interested in huddling under my down duvet and watching Dexter, drinking my tea.
Today I got a note on Facebook from a high school acquaintance, asking me why my brother was downloading weird apps and contacting her about them. They are applications about love matches, crushes, being naughty or nice, etc. Her e-mail made me feel how I felt in high school, somehow associated with my brother's social awkwardness but also feeling fiercely protective of him. I could never understand why people thought I had some insight on why he was the way he was. I accept him for who he is. We both are awkward and weird in our own ways, but I seem to be the more socially adept of the two of us. I know what it's like to feel rejection, to be made fun of, but to also see my brother made fun of by his peers. It all hurts. That's part of the reason why I hate popularity contests, and how many friends someone has collected on MySpace and Facebook. It reminds me too much if growing up. I would give anything now for a really good friend, rather than a cache of contacts.
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I used to like Facebook way more than MySpace, but with all the stupid stuff Facebook has been doing (the news feed, the stupid apps), MySpace is actually starting to look good now. Did you hear about the Beacon service Facebook started that got all that trouble? Pretty bad if you ask me.
My MySpace account got hacked and my friends all got comments from me with a graphic saying "I have a friend who has a crush on you." That sucked, but I don't like this phishing that Facebook is capable of. A friend on there sent me a petition about it. Half their apps are really buggy too and crash a lot. I often end up removing stuff so my page doesn't look so trashy.
Yeah, I usually go through my Facebook profile page once in a while and get rid of crap I never do anything with.
I love Constant Comment too. Except I most often drink it iced.
I can relate to still feeling protect of siblings. One of the classes I sub in is kids who have learning disabilities, not exactly special ed, but some of them are different. My brother was in those and I can relate to the kids. I realized I feel about them like I do him in some ways...
It's funny what you say about the two places. My space seems like high school. Facebook, my cool eclectic college crowd. Of course it could be because that is how my friends are represented on both.
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